Wednesday, June 17, 2009

I had a very bad dream last night, and it felt like it was almost real.
I have a million questions to ask myself, why cant i just let it go?
Wont you remove it, if that's the only thing blocking your way to happiness?
Why does it keep coming back again and again and ruin everything?
God, i really need help on this. The scar left in my heart to be totally removed.
I can pretend to be all fine and totally over with it, but even if i can fake yall, i cant bluff myself. :(

Fucking bad mood now.
You can shout and scream over the phone to anybody else even your mother.
But not me, i fucking hate it, i really do.
Cant you just change and dont be so pissed off easily?
Both of us were wrong, i know.
I just feel i hardly have the chance to express my unhappiness to you.
Even if i do, im always the one to be corrected by you. I dont like it.
Yes my fault sometimes, but if when it's yours, i got some of the blame as well. Why?
Sometimes in other to make things work, i'll just accept it.
Rather than the arguement to keep going on and on.
I dont wanna go on anymore, coz given my character, im always the nicey one who will always keep the bad things to myself and make the other party happy.
Trust me. One day, it will tear down...

Yesterday, Ivy's bro Ivan was really nice to fetch ivy, yuanfeng and me over to to her house for mahjong!
It is so far away! like another side of the world from where im staying.
If not we can like make it a every week thing! (:
We played 2 rounds. Was losing like shit during the first but managed to fight back on the 2nd round. (:

I tio-ed DA SAN YUAN with all the hong zhong, qing fa and bai ban!!!
Bonsan threw my winning card, the bai ban to me! Hahahaha! Damn shiok la.
Then ivy's parents bought back dinner for us, there was my fav chilli crab! :D
So nice can, though it was my first time to her place, but her parents are so friendly already. (:
In the end won 2 bucks! lol.


We took this while waiting for bonsan!

Rushed off with yf and bonsan managed to catch the last bus to bukit timah.
Nicck came to fetch us. Thanks dear!
Supper at gombak prata.

Gonna go prepare...
Ghosts of gf's past later!(: